An excerpt from my journal today:
"Thank you... for softening my heart. Jesus, I want to be squishy & love with my heart wide-open because that's how Your heart is to us. Unworthy, worthless messes & You love the messy, the ugly, the haters- and You love us all the way into Your Kingdom & Your love, it softens, it beckons, it transforms. Even me. A new creation. A heart of flesh in exchange for a heart of stone. Forgive me for trying to protect this soft heart with my own walls of stone because I don't understand fully the freedom that lies in leaving it in Your hands & that's how to guard a heart- to realize it's on loan from You anyway..."